a "crush" course...

"Love is nothing, nothing, nothing like they say..."
-Liz Phair (also quoted in the book, Good In Bed by Jennifer Weiner)

Happiness is basically all around...sometimes people are a little happy, sometimes they are plenty happy...but when they turn giddy, now that's cranking it up a notch...

when they find themselves smiling for no reason...staring into space and can't do anything right (but they couldn't seem to care less)...

they're probably into something, or better yet, someone...

I've seen my friends have goofy times in their lives, thinking of this one person, their minds wandering into space...and they can't stop smiling...they go about their everyday lives but the difference is they float through the day...occassionally they'd hum a tune...they would have a hard time understanding a word you're saying even if you're just saying something simple like "where do you want to have coffee later?"...they would have only heard the word "later"...

These, my friends, are signs of...i wish to say insanity...but it's a milder case of being crazy...it's being crazy over and/or for someone...a crush if you may...

Merriam-Webster would define it as "an intense and usually passing infatuation"... i like both parts of that definition...the first part -- intense... i like anything that comes after the word intense... intense argument, intense game, intense affection etc. ... and the second part-- usually passing... it's very comforting to know that it passes...so nobody really is cursed with it...there is still a way out of it...and you can be normal again after this intense but fleeting feeling...

But there's really nothing wrong with embracing the moment...basking in it like there is no tomorrow...like nobody else matters but this person...there is nothing wrong with drinking it all up while you still can because it will eventually fade in time...and that's the fun part of life...you have a choice to live it like there's no tomorrow, like nobody else matters...at that very moment...

Moments are the only things you can call perfect because it's personal...you make it perfect...your own little world...your own terms...heck, you even create your own little soundtrack...every song would mean something to you now...you'd have a theme song and a break-up song in mind for moments you feel it is almost fading.

Now isn't that something? You'd have lived a whole different life without leaving your own little space...this is what happens when your mind conspires with your heart...ah...now that's a good tag team...

It's just like being in a rollercoaster ride...try not to close your eyes and take it all in...the fear...the excitement...scream...and be relieved that the ride will eventually end...

And that's when you go back home...and be okay again.
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