the heart is not that kind...

"my heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with."
- Because of You, from the album Breakaway
Kelly Clarkson
Even the sturdiest brick wall would have a chip here and a crack there...even when you think you can control the things around you with your will power, sometimes the mind is just no match for the heart...

ah yes, the heart...it breaks everything your mind believes in...it refuses to follow the rules that your mind has set... it loves to breakaway...

You tell yourself to follow your course, then the heart listens to it's own beating, and steers away from the direction your mind wants to take....say you want to forget...a bad childhood memory...the person you left...or the person who left you...

your mind will always be willing...but the heart ...ah, the heart...it is not that kind...it never is...especially the broken kind...now that one is unforgiving...

It's a good thing there is time...time can be your friend if you just acknowledge it... everything takes time...everything is healed in time...it eases you into a new day...and every new day you wake up to, things seem to settle...bit by bit...

it's usually not as bad today as it was yesterday...

so time can be your armour against the heart...it's a good thing there is time...
Isn't it just fascinating? How one tiny little thing the size of your fist can do something so huge and life changing?

Like, say, falling in love or falling out of love...compassion...anger...fear...joy...and all the while you do not notice how fast or how slow it beats...a steady heart beat only happens during sleep... even then your heart never sleeps...it just waits for you and the next morning... and then it's at it again...it lives for it...it loves conflict, despair, longing, pain...

So now you must wonder how or better yet, why your heart keeps you alive...

It's all that you just read...your heart keeps you alive for the ride of your life...love, compassion, conflict, despair, pain, suffering, joy, sadness...

and if you didn't have them in your life...then your heart must be very weak indeed,

and you haven't really lived.