the soundtrack in my head

"Is love not dead? Yet I hear that tune if I lie, dreaming awake in the night on my lonely bed, and an old thought turns with the old tune in my head." - "Images of Good and Evil", Arthur Symons

It is rare for me to go through a single day without a track in my head...
and it's usually something that has to do with what i am doing,
about to do or wish to do...

it's that little soundtrack in my head...

you know how it is with movies...every scene has a musical score...
so does every scene in my days...in my nights...

i have my own little soundtrack... i have songs for every chapter...
for every act...

no matter how insane it sounds, you know exactly what i mean...
you understand how it is to walk life with music
in the little corners of your brain.

i cry, i laugh, i eat, i drive, i play, i work, i love, i leave, i return...

i do all that with this song and that...in my head...
and my soul basks in it... marinating until it's time to grill it,
fire it up and make the tender, tough... and ready...

i'm a big fan of life and this is one of the things that makes it amazing...
weaved together with music, life is breathtaking...

every song has a different meaning...in your life and mine...
each song matters to us in different levels that makes us, breaks us,
shakes us, takes us to places we can only imagine...

there are songs that make you realize "you" and perhaps even more...

there are songs that help you try to let go and move on...
you listen to it in your head over and over until it hurts...
too much that you find your heart in your hand...
you purge and purge some more...until it's out of your system.
or so you'd like to wish...

your soundtrack heals yet sometimes feeds the pain...
it makes you remember and relive every second, every minute...
with every note, with every fret...

it intensifies your movements, your relationships, your senses...
it deepens your encounters, your words, your thoughts...
it amplifies everything around you...everything about you.

and sometimes your words become lines to songs you have
yet to encounter...songs that have yet to be written...

songs capture moments of our lives in diverse intensities...
and we all sing it's tune...in different notes, different frets...
different progressions...with different instruments...

but they are all in the same orchestra...we call life.

now, if that's not amazing...

i don't know what is.