when super glue fails...

"my blood, my hand, my soul...
i throw them unto you without control...
the things i freely give, you stole...
and now i'm left in pieces...

...you've got to tell the world
about the girl you once knew,
oh she wasn't meant to be...
but you fell so very deeply...
in love... with me..." - Untitled, Rachael Yamagata

Sometimes you go through some things that leave you helpless...
you hurt too much, it renders you motionless... emotionless...if you may...

the spark inside you just dies...

like someone blew on the candle that lights you up...
and leaves you dim...and... dark...

Sometimes you feel you've given so much of yourself...
and after the ride you don't recognize yourself anymore...
it took so much out of you that you feel you have nothing left.

you're not the same anymore... you become a stranger to yourself...
you're broken... and you want your pieces put back together...

if only you can super glue yourself back the way you were...

and you hope one day... by some form of miracle...
you'll be whole again... you'll be you again...
or atleast how you remember you...

but you and i know that once you're broken, you're changed forever...
you're never the same... just a hint of what was...

you can only patch yourself up inside temporarily...
it will only hold for a few weeks, months...
and if you're lucky...it may hold for a few years...

but the chips, the cracks can never be completely sealed...

that's what happens when you give... of yourself... too much...
and not leave some for you... your safety... your sanity...

but somehow that's how you should give...
your all is sometimes not enough...
and you have so much to lose in the end...

funny that that's the beauty of it...that one...right there...

you know what will happen... but you still do it...
you still give... of yourself... completely...

knowing you'll have nothing left in the end...you don't hold back...

some people think it's crazy...
but that's what happens when you give great love.
not love, not big love, but great love.

it grasps you.
enchants you.
overwhelms you.
takes you to new heights you've never even thought possible...

and just as fast as it grabs you...
without a clue, without a warning...
it drops you...

the freefall snatches your beating heart off your chest...
you hit the pavement...

shattered...
pieces of you...millions of them...scatter...

and no matter how much you try...
you can never be super glued back.

you'd have lost a lot of bits and pieces along the way...

but the thing is, that's when you will have learned...
that's when you find the you that you never thought was ever there...

it comes out of the ruins...
and you respect it...you embrace it...

as you let the heartbreak take its course...
take its last breath...

you find yourself say...

that you, chips, cracks and all are actually,
okay...