frame you...

"We all reject out of hand the idea that the love of our life may be something light or weightless; we pressume our love is what must be...that without it, our life would no longer be the same..." - The Unbearable Lightness of Being, Milan Kundera

if there was a way to capture one moment of you...
to immortalize that memory...put it in a frame and just look at you.
if there was a way to pick a favorite second...a snapshot...not two...
of the way i wish to remember you...

if there was a way to do this...
then i can also choose what i wish to miss...

then i wouldn't have to suffer your touch
my heart wouldn't have to bleed so much...

to push away everything else i saw in you...
except in that one moment, one fine day...
to believe that that was the soul i knew...
and the rest i should just crop out and throw away...

didn't i give you everything i own?
gave you your septer, your crown, your throne?
i thought you said i made you smile...
but that only lasted for a while...

you said you wish to stay with me...
that i was made only for you...
it took me awhile to really see...
that you really didn't have a clue...

to give your hand, your soul, your heart...
for someone to rip it all apart...
never really fair...even from the start...

should i stay or should i leave you...
a catch 22.
my heart beats black, my spirit screams blue...
took me so long to do what i had to do..

so i turn away...with so much more in my life to see...
so much more to do...so much more for me...

even now that i seem to be fine...
it starts to play in my head now and then...
memories that are still mine...
hazy bits of the how, the what, the when...

still i hope, still i pray... that there really was a way...
to make that one moment stay...that fine day...

the only thing of you i wish i knew...
to keep only one nice memory...good enough...
to frame you.