a care package...

a care package...

"When someone cares, it is easier to speak, it is easier to listen, it is easier to play, it is easier to work...when someone cares, it is easier to laugh."
-Susan Polis Shutz

I just got a message today in the show...from a young lady who seemed very sad...she has a dear friend...who will be gone in two months...

Now, how does one live with that little piece of information? How does one handle something so fragile? I'd go nuts just thinking about it, knowing I could not stop it from happening...

But that's the thing...I should not even think about stopping it from happening...because it is bound to happen...it's already written in God's book. If I could only erase the words written in that book, so it won't happen this soon...but i can't... nobody can...

You just have to let it run it's course...it is not and will never be in our hands, like time...we can never stop it from ticking every single second...

But there is something I can do...to make it better...I can continue to care...and show it without hesitation...I'd have to shed my armor, and be vulnerable...

but it's all good because that's how it should be...time is not your friend this time around...every second now counts, every second so precious you need to make the most out of every one of them...

Every second should be spent with gratitude...every second with your precious friend should count as a blessing...the good part is that you met each other and you experienced each other's light no matter how brief a time...{I know you're reading this right now, you know who you are...everything happens for a reason sweetie, and that is not a cop out...it is the truth...I may not know much, but I do believe in this...so please...do cry...do grieve...but never forget to be grateful for the little things and for the gift of knowing your friend...}

Caring is valuable...these days not a lot of people show they care...because they're afraid...they fear the thought of being vulnerable...they fear the thought of seeming weak...but that's just it...in showing your vulnerabilities, in showing little acts of kindness, in showing that you care...you actually use an enormous amount of strength to pull it off...this kind of bravery goes beyond what people see... and what other people say shouldn't matter because this is your cause...to care.

Someone sent me a "Care Package" on the day I needed it most (he knows who he is too)... like I keep saying, kindness always does it for me...there is nothing like it... to this day it makes me smile...it's not the package but the care and thought that was put into it that mattered most to me...and the timing...impeccable...

So, if you can send someone a "care package" today...a smile...a nice email...a kind word...a hug...whatever you can spare at one particular moment...one particular second...do so...it won't take so much out of you...but it can mean the world to that person you give it to...

And whatever happens, whatever and no matter how many bumps you may stumble on...it is still pretty good...Life, that is...it is, always has and always will be...

only if you believe...and see it for what it really is...

and make peace with whatever it has to offer.

Life is good.

You just have to handle it with care.
=)

the heart is not that kind...

"my heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with."
- Because of You, from the album Breakaway
Kelly Clarkson
Even the sturdiest brick wall would have a chip here and a crack there...even when you think you can control the things around you with your will power, sometimes the mind is just no match for the heart...

ah yes, the heart...it breaks everything your mind believes in...it refuses to follow the rules that your mind has set... it loves to breakaway...

You tell yourself to follow your course, then the heart listens to it's own beating, and steers away from the direction your mind wants to take....say you want to forget...a bad childhood memory...the person you left...or the person who left you...

your mind will always be willing...but the heart ...ah, the heart...it is not that kind...it never is...especially the broken kind...now that one is unforgiving...

It's a good thing there is time...time can be your friend if you just acknowledge it... everything takes time...everything is healed in time...it eases you into a new day...and every new day you wake up to, things seem to settle...bit by bit...

it's usually not as bad today as it was yesterday...

so time can be your armour against the heart...it's a good thing there is time...
Isn't it just fascinating? How one tiny little thing the size of your fist can do something so huge and life changing?

Like, say, falling in love or falling out of love...compassion...anger...fear...joy...and all the while you do not notice how fast or how slow it beats...a steady heart beat only happens during sleep... even then your heart never sleeps...it just waits for you and the next morning... and then it's at it again...it lives for it...it loves conflict, despair, longing, pain...

So now you must wonder how or better yet, why your heart keeps you alive...

It's all that you just read...your heart keeps you alive for the ride of your life...love, compassion, conflict, despair, pain, suffering, joy, sadness...

and if you didn't have them in your life...then your heart must be very weak indeed,

and you haven't really lived.

a "crush" course...

"Love is nothing, nothing, nothing like they say..."
-Liz Phair (also quoted in the book, Good In Bed by Jennifer Weiner)

Happiness is basically all around...sometimes people are a little happy, sometimes they are plenty happy...but when they turn giddy, now that's cranking it up a notch...

when they find themselves smiling for no reason...staring into space and can't do anything right (but they couldn't seem to care less)...

they're probably into something, or better yet, someone...

I've seen my friends have goofy times in their lives, thinking of this one person, their minds wandering into space...and they can't stop smiling...they go about their everyday lives but the difference is they float through the day...occassionally they'd hum a tune...they would have a hard time understanding a word you're saying even if you're just saying something simple like "where do you want to have coffee later?"...they would have only heard the word "later"...

These, my friends, are signs of...i wish to say insanity...but it's a milder case of being crazy...it's being crazy over and/or for someone...a crush if you may...

Merriam-Webster would define it as "an intense and usually passing infatuation"... i like both parts of that definition...the first part -- intense... i like anything that comes after the word intense... intense argument, intense game, intense affection etc. ... and the second part-- usually passing... it's very comforting to know that it passes...so nobody really is cursed with it...there is still a way out of it...and you can be normal again after this intense but fleeting feeling...

But there's really nothing wrong with embracing the moment...basking in it like there is no tomorrow...like nobody else matters but this person...there is nothing wrong with drinking it all up while you still can because it will eventually fade in time...and that's the fun part of life...you have a choice to live it like there's no tomorrow, like nobody else matters...at that very moment...

Moments are the only things you can call perfect because it's personal...you make it perfect...your own little world...your own terms...heck, you even create your own little soundtrack...every song would mean something to you now...you'd have a theme song and a break-up song in mind for moments you feel it is almost fading.

Now isn't that something? You'd have lived a whole different life without leaving your own little space...this is what happens when your mind conspires with your heart...ah...now that's a good tag team...

It's just like being in a rollercoaster ride...try not to close your eyes and take it all in...the fear...the excitement...scream...and be relieved that the ride will eventually end...

And that's when you go back home...and be okay again.
=)

the mind is an amazing thing...

the mind is an amazing thing...

"...Occasionally, the Warrior sits down...and lets everything that is happening around him, continue to happen. He looks at the world as a spectator. He does not try to add or take away from it. He merely surrenders unresistingly to the movement of life... little by little, everything that seems complicated begins to become simple...and the Warrior is glad."
-Paulo Coelho, "Warrior of the Light" (2002)

My fridate (she knows who she is)...gave me this book called Warrior of the Light some three weeks ago...her timing...impeccable...

the book is one of the best things I've ever received this year...it has helped me realize stuff about a lot of things... the cover says, "short notes on accepting failure, embracing life and rising to your destiny."...

whew...i know...pretty heavy stuff huh?...but sometimes i like the heavy stuff...i'm the type to purge once in a while...it's good for the soul...or so they say...

It's amazing what a little book can do to alter your perception of things...sometimes you think you're in a rut but in fact, if you stay away and watch it happen and just let it happen (like the quote off the book says)...things eventually turn up clearer and simpler...

It helps you absorb and digest what you see in front of you...it's dang hard to do that when you're too involved in it...

So, I am beginning to learn how to stay away...keep my distance...watch and let things happen...

"The mind is an amazing thing", as that line from one Savage Garden song goes (Two Beds and A Coffee Machine)...you can will it to do, believe and see anything, just as you can will it not to do, not to believe and not to see anything... you can be passionate about something one morning and be numb about it the next day if you put your mind to it...

It's a difficult process if you are too self absorbed...but if you don't think the world revolves around you and you alone, it can be pretty easy...

I've been told I make people smile...I sure hope so...whatever little i can do to do just that, I would...and whatever more I am expected to do or say just to do that, I would...

I am not big on hurting people...I am not a big fan of heartbreak, but it happens...so if I can do anything to soften the blow, I'd do it.

I received a call from a very nice listener, who didn't sound like himself today...I could hear heartbreak...his girl told him that she's been going out with his best friend...

A friend once said that heartbreak is not something you'd want to wish on anyone...true...

So I played him a song...well two songs... (How to Deal by Frankie J and Kwarto by Sugarfree) that was the best I could do...but I sure hope it helped him smile for a little while...

My little Claire-bear suffered from the curse of September and I'm glad that month's over...the heart is always a fragile thing but your mind can teach it, can will it to be strong...

I too have been a casualty of September, but now that October is here, things should be a lot better...you hurt today...but you heal tomorrow...just shake it off...

It's all good...whatever happens...things can't be too bad...we can all afford to smile even on a crappy day...because life is and will always be good.

=) always.